I had a dream last night. I haven’t dreamt like that in a long time.
I was walking on ice in what could only be described as this amazing landscape of ice and snow, brilliant colors of light cascading everywhere like through painted glass, with pools of water that were warm and steaming, but not hot and so clear you could see all the way to the bottom of the pools as if there wasn’t any water at all. The landscape was covered in ice and snow, and yet I was not uncomfortably cold. In fact I didn’t feel cold or hot, just clean and refreshed, unhindered and without pain.
The beauty of this place was indescribable. The colors were colors I have never seen before. Colors my subconscious could not have made up. They were… heavenly.
My dogs were there and walking with me. Shorty was going from playing in the water to bouncing at my heels and biting my feet. It puts an ache in me just writing it because in the dream there was no sense of her loss. No mourning of her death. It was not as if there’d been a happy reunion. It was as if that pain never existed. Perhaps… as if death had been wiped clean.
Nip was “supermanning” into the waters after nothing else but a tennis ball and being utterly ridiculous as usual. And I remember laughing. Laughing at the joy my children bring with every silly thing they do. I also remember I was not laughing alone. I was walking with someone. I never saw a figure, or a face. But I was absolutely not alone.
As we walked and my dogs played, we were laughing at their antics together. And I was babbling on with stories of things they’d done. Showing off their tricks. Going on and on about all sorts of things. My horses, adventures, ideas I have, my heart. Exactly like a little girl would when showing off to her dad, twirling in her finest princess dress saying ‘look at me’. And I remember feeling seen and adored. He never felt bored with me, never let on that He already knew all the things. And His laugh was the most amazing sound I have ever heard.
Why I have dreams like these I don’t know. Often waking up from them is painful. But I also know they are on purpose. I believe I was walking in Heaven last night, and laughing with the Lord.
